Yesterday was the first day of my “smoke free” life… All I can think about as a sit here in front of the computer is how much I want a fucking cigarette, when I woke up this morning all I wanted to do was walk outside and have my morning cigarette. I am glad I got rid of all my smokes because at this point I would be very inclined to light one up if given the chance…. Must stay strong! Luckily, I will have the distraction of work today, god it’s going to be a long day at work.  I am still tired from my plane flight yesterday and then having to go directly to work from the airport. Haha sorry for the bitch fest…  

On a good note, I have decided to start a savings account and put what I would have spent on cigarettes each week away until I can spend it on something great. Perhaps a plane ticket to Texas so I can visit Nat… I do miss her. That will probably only take me 3 months to save up for maybe 4. I am trying to think of what other wonderful things I would buy myself with this new found money. Knowing what a tight wad I am, I will just let the money sit in the bank until a rainy day… which is weak sauce… I need to remind myself constantly that it is okay to spend money on things that I want once in a while. Cigarettes have really only been the one thing I am willing to throw large amounts of money away on. I would rather go without food, gas, or clothes then give up my cigarettes. Which is fucked up considering: 1) I know that they are slowly going to kill me. 2) They will make my teeth yellow. 3) They make my breath, skin, and clothes smell like shit.

Well it’s about that time I head off to work, first I am going to make a big cup of coffee… I NEED COFFEE… I am going to replace my nicotine addiction with a caffeine addiction.